Friday, October 17, 2008

Starting out...

Well so far I've been to 3 face to face meetings. I totally binged after my first one, but then I got the hang of it over the wekend, then I did great till today (about 5 days). There were cookies at work, like always. And then I went to the grocery store where I made all good choices except for the pint of icecream I bought. It was all I could think about while I was in the store and in the car on the way home and then i ate the whole thing. I didn't want to but I couldn't stop. I need to spend more time on the steps. I want to get on the 301 plan, but at this point I'm not being too rigid. Which may end up to be a mistake, I don't know. I need a sponcer bad. I have someone in mind and hope to see her at a meeting on Thursday.
Other than this last slip, I have been getting through the desire to binge on food by binging on diet soda. I know it doesn't help with the behavior but at least it is a change... This is why I need a sponcer.

I'm scared to go to work tomorrow. They sell all kinds of candy and other junk food in the breakroom for a fundraiser. I have had trouble staying away from it in the past, actually I eat a ton every time I go to work. I need to pray and trust that my HP will guide me through this.

I'm learning that my issues with food have nothing to do with food. So how did I end up so focused on it?

3 comments:

Jesse Mendez said...

Hi how are you? I was looking through blogger profiles and noticed similarities, and found your blog interesting to me.

I have an art blog and am looking for new friends who comment and keep coming back are you up to it?

Take care and I value relationships and art obviously but most importantly my type of friends. I hope to see you soon...

Down in Sunny San Diego said...

Hi there. I saw you linked as a follower to my blog so I wanted to say thanks for reading and to say hi. I'm sending you big hugs of encouragement as you walk through your OA journey. One day at a time.

A New Beginning said...

All of us fight with ourselves day in and day out for something or the other. Sometimes we fail, sometimes we win.Like failing is not in our hands, victory too comes....like a cool breeze, making us proud of all our efforts. You'll achieve your goals, don't fuss...its just a matter of time.
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